Originally from Hong Kong, Patsy is an artistic and choreographic director.
Patsy worked in marketing for more than 20 years globally. At 48, she left her high powered job at Apple Inc. after working for the American tech giant in various countries to become a full time dance student in Paris, France. She had never danced before.
Blending her passion in dance and her background in marketing, Patsy founded sml Dance in 2019. Her hope is to share dance as a medium for courage, self exploration and human connections.
Her personal artistic project, REBIRTH, began its development with a residency at Orsolina28 in Sept. 2020. Extensions of the project have been selected for international dance festivals and featured in Numéro China and Nowness Asia on numerous occasions.
Now, splitting her time between Hong Kong, Paris and Shanghai, Patsy still practises ballet and contemporary Graham technique.
Why she dances
“I was so sick that I could not eat, sleep or get out of bed. Every part of my body was swollen, even inside my ear canals,” Patsy said. “None of the Western doctors I consulted could help me. They gave more drugs. I got worse.
“One of them said, ‘Do not worry. Here is Sedative A for the morning, Sedative B for the afternoon and Sedative C for the evening. And if you still cannot sleep at night, here is a prescription-strength sleeping pill’. A light bulb came on in my head, ‘Ding! I am going to die like a rock star’.”
Aside from her brush with death, there was an accumulation of various moments that led to her resignation from a managing position at Apple Inc., a company she’d once thought she would work for until retirement.
“One of those moments was when I was being mesmerised by a dancer at a Cirque du Soleil performance in Macao. I felt this sense of yearning to be like him, the way he was on stage. How completely present he was, not just in his head, but fully there with every inch of his body. Moving and sharing with so much passion,” she shared.
Then there was the Tom Ford movie, A Single Man, starring Colin Firth as an English professor mourning the death of his partner and preparing to join him.
“What stayed most with me was this quote: ‘A few times in my life I've had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp and the world seems so fresh. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade’.”
She went on to share: “There was often a sense of emptiness. I felt a hole in the middle of my chest. Sometimes it felt like depression. I tried to fill it up by working harder, shopping, eating and even keeping the wrong company. Nothing helped.
“Finally, I understood that it was myself asking me to connect with me. To look inside and reconnect with the love and peace that was given to me, to all of us, at birth. A love that is saturated with peace, harmony and hope. A love that is only possible if we let go, and trust.
“I recall the moment I asked my cousin Rita to pray with me after months of not sleeping properly. I gave in. I felt hopeless yet hopeful… in a way. I decided to stop fighting and start trusting.
“‘Dear God, if you have meant for me to have a life dependant on sedatives and pills, I accept it. It is the life that I have feared. But if You need me, for your bigger plan, to have this life, I accept it.’
“At this point, tears were streaming down both of our faces.”
Two months later, Patsy was free of medication. It was acupuncture, Chinese herbs and natural therapy that got her back on my feet. She had pushed her body too hard for too long. It stopped knowing how to re-balance itself. Yes, that was all.
“The realisation dawned on me that, sometimes, what is in my head is not really what’s in my heart. I thought I wanted recognition at work — but it didn’t fulfil me. I could no longer spend hours sitting at a desk, feeling disconnected from the rest of my body." she explained.
“I realised I need to dance. To be completely present in the moment. Not thinking about the future or the past. To connect within myself and share the love and peace I feel each day. Maybe, this will have a ripple effect to the rest of the world. Like they always say when you board an airplane: ‘Please ensure you put on your own oxygen mask before you help someone else’.”
Photography | Christophe Meimoon
Hair | Javier Palacio
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